Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Confused,Dilenma,Why ...
Too much happend today,too much to spell everything out. Never expected your mouth to be so big. You disappointed me in terms of trust ... a friend for 3 years + ??? hmph ...
"Why did all these happened? Why must all these happen today?
Why must it happen on me? Why can't everything go the other way? ..."
These are the questions i asked myself constanly. Chak big mouth today,forget it. Worst of all, tution teacher show me attitude ... Keep it up man ~~~ If you are so eager to see my anger,i'll accustom it to the way you want it soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo badly.
For your info mister, academy has never been,and will never be,my 1st priority IN LIFE !!! You stinking adults better not pin so much hopes on me,or i promise you i'll disappoint all of you BIG TIME !!! Don't ever force your ideals and expectations into MY LIFE,i live for my own sake,not for yours' ,got that?! Hopes bring forth more expectations,and more expectation brings about more stress,and more stress only hinder one's performance. And too much stress will only despair YOU more,and in the end,u blame that very person for it,is this how u people want it??? This is how i see the world,don't like it? SCRAM !!!
How lousy am i today ...
To Her : Look,i don't know whats really goin on with both you and me,but i'm really seeing all this as though the distance between us is growing more and more. I don't care what rumours Chak & others wanna spread about,and i don't give a Damn to those who are sooooooooooo eager to see me have a stead and whatever it is, but since its been so spelled out clearly,i'll just be frank with you. I don't really know when this started,and i'm not sure if i really like you,all i can confirm is that i do care for you. That sad expression you wore on that Monday really affected me. And i'm really angry at some people for being so immature and keep saying stuffs like "Bryan miss you alot!" or whatsoever, because i know you are still chained by somethings in your heart,thus i know now's not really a good time to let you know my affections for you .... But as for now,what i'm really concerned about is,be it your answer a good or bad one to me,i really dun wish for us to go on this stranger game anymore! Be it from the standpoint of someone who has affections for you or jus an average classmate of yours,exchanging only less than 5 words to each other for two days is really too little,ok? Please don't avoid me anymore if you are ... it only give me less courage to face you in the future ...
Just when you thought you won't love anymore ...
3:55 AM
